Vroom, Vroom, Beep, Beep

I took this picture on Thanksgiving while we were over at my husband's, mom's house. Christopher loves playing with this ride on car that she has for him.

Baby Day

My friend, Stephanie, had her baby this morning. He was 6 days overdue so everyone was defiantly ready to meet him. I just got back from visiting them. He is so adorable! I wish I had remembered to take my camera. Stephanie will probably update her website with all the details and plenty of pictures. So you can check there for more information.

Decision Made

Well, my decision has been made for me. When I woke up this morning, I had a miscarriage. I'm glad that it happened because it means the decision I had to make was made for me. Still I am sad that I lost the baby but I know it was for the best.

I'm not really quite sure how I feel about it just yet. I think I'm still in a little bit of shock over it. I knew it could be coming but it was still a surprise.

Thank you to everyone who is my wonderful support system. I couldn't have made it through this without you, especially Stephanie and my wonderful husband, Shaun.

Pets Need Webpages Too

Yesterday I found this fun website, Catster, through a blog I read. Since I have a cat, I thought this would be a fun thing to do for her, since we all know that cats can't type. So now you can see China on Catster. For now it's just some information and my favorite pictures. Maybe one day I'll even get ambitious enough to add a diary for her.

Decisions

Yesterday, we had an appointment with my CNM (Certified Nurse Midwife.) She did a routine pregnancy examination and also did an internal exam. She didn't really tell me anything new but she did say that because the bleeding, I have what is called a threatened miscarriage. She also told me that if I want I can resume normal household activity.

Then we went to a perinatologist and he did a sonogram. Once he found the problem he told us that because the baby is so small it's really difficult to tell whether the baby has cystic hygroma or nuchal translucency. The definitions of the two problems overlap a little but in either case there is an increase risk of other chromosomal defects. The main thing I'm worried about is if there are other chromosomal defects because that could effect any pregnancy I may have in the future. Now we have to decide if we want to just wait it out and let nature take it's course, so to speak, or if we want to get further testing done. If I don't miscarry, then we have the option of terminating the pregnancy before 20 weeks, but 20 weeks is still a while away.

We aren't sure what we are going to do that is point. This morning, I haven't had any bleeding yet but as I have learned that can change quickly. I guess we have a lot of decisions to make and I'm definitely worried about making the right ones.

Bad News

Thursday night, I felt a trickle in my underwear. I just assumed it was discharge. When I went to the bathroom I found it was blood. I called labor and delivery at my hospital and asked if I should come in right away or if I could wait until the morning and call my CNM (Certified Nurse Midwife). They said as long as the bleeding wasn't heavy, I could wait. The bleeding wasn't heavy so I waited. In the morning I called my CNM's office. They got me an unltrasound appointment. We had the ultrasound and the technician told us that we had a live baby but she could tell us anything else. Later that night my CNM called me to tell me some bad news. They found a mass on the back of the baby's head. It's called Cystic Hygroma. Right now we don't know what's going to happen. I have an appointment tomorrow with my CNM. She also wants to schedule me an appointment with a perinatoligst.

My bleeding has increased though, and last night I passed a few small clots, so things aren't looking good. I'm trying to stay level headed but it's getting difficult. The longer I sit at home on light bed rest the harder it gets to stay calm. When I have Christopher around it's easy because I have something else to worry about but at night or when I'm alone it gets hard to stay strong. I'm very lucky to have a strong support group but sometimes I still feel like I'm all alone in this. That no one can really understand what I'm going through. I guess the hardest part is not knowing what is going on. If I knew what was going on, I think it would be easier to deal with. My pregnancy with Christopher was so uncomplicated. I guess I was just expecting this one to be the same. I know better than to think, "That will never happen to me," but I guess I was thinking that way because I honestly didn't think anything like this would happen to me.

Christopher and His Stuffed Animals

My son, Christopher, playing with his stuffed animals before bed. See the set here.

Wish Lists Galore

Since it's getting close to Christmas time (and my birthday,) I thought I would make some Amazon.com wish lists for everyone who would like to know what to get my family and I. So here they are:

Melissa (things I want)
Christopher (things for my son, Christopher)
Pregnancy (things for my pregnancy and birth)
Household (things for our house, things for our whole family)
Baby (things we want for our second baby, due in June)

I'm still trying to get Shaun to make one. When I manage to get him too I'll be sure to post a link.

Spoils Part 3

I received my third Spoil-A-Blogger gift yesterday. Well, the mail hasn't been checked almost all week so I could have received it anytime this week. My Secret Blogging Fairy sent me this (see left) CD from my Amazon Wish List. The little note with it said:

Now that you've scrapbooked, drank cosmos, and been bitch-controlled, it's finally time to relax with some tunes. Enjoy your October spoil! :) - Your Secret Blogging Fairy

So to my Secret Blogging Fairy, Thank you very much I love it! I am a little disappointed that I didn't get to find out who you are though!

Also here is a picture of my second spoils that I never got around to posting about.



The little note said:

A Scapbooking we will go
A scrabpooking we will go
Hi-ho the derry-o
A scrapbooking we will go

Enjoy your September spoils!! :)

<3, Your blogging fairy (along with 3 of my favorite things!)

She had stickers of 3 of her favorite things: Hello Kitty, Halloween and cute Sandals.

The Twist

So we were watching the TV show Las Vegas on Monday night. They did like a "flash back" show where the show took place in the 60s instead of the present. The entire time Danny (one of the shows characters) is asking people if they know how to do the twist. At the end of the show they have Chubby Checker as the guest star. They play the song The Twist and they all start dancing the twist. So the rest of the night I had that song suck in my head and was singing it. Christopher loved it! He would even try and copy me. I would sing a line and then he would "sing" it. Of course, just because he would sing it didn't mean you could understand him, but it was the cutest thing. I still have the song stuck in my head!

My Secret Is Out

Well, my secret Spoil-A-Blogger pal got her last gift this week. Christy at groovy-chick.com was my pal and I enjoyed spoiling her. Now all I have to do is wait for get my last package to find out who my "secret blogging fairy" is!

Belly Picture - 8 Weeks 5 Days

Here's my little pregnant belly. I've got a fair amount of belly fat left over from my pregnancy with Christopher so I'm not sure how much of my pooch is fat and how much is due to baby. I'm sucking it in as far as I could so hopefully what's left is because of baby. I don't have hardly any pictures of me pregnant with Christopher so I'm going to try and take regular belly pictures with this one.

Baby Makes Four

Now that I've had my first doctor's appointment, and I've told everyone local, I guess I can tell the rest of the world that I'm having a baby! Well, I guess it's actually, we're having a baby but I'm doing most of the actual work. I'm quite excited! Especially since my friend, Kara, is expecting too. Which is funny because her son was born about 3 weeks before my son, so we are pregnant together again! This will be my second baby and make us into a family of four. I'm really hoping for a girl but won't know until about January. I guess we won't really know for sure until the baby is born in June!